SPECIAL EDITION Why Compromise Your Soul? Religions & Values!!!!!

Count down to Armageddon! That's right I said it! It seems as if we are allll going backwards instead of forward in some case. The world is running fast to madness and mayhem quickly! From the crazy weather and disasters all over the world seemingly happening at one time. To the injustices coming to play out in the open more and more. Financial havoc exploding and people barley making it! When rich and the wealthy are having an issue, that says a lot! In some very critical cases I might add! The world is spinning out of control like a top! Come to think of it, I never knew the true fundamentals in how to make that tiny toy top spin. However my father knew just how to do it! I would get a kick out of it watching it spin on it's tiny pin drop bottom. Oops! Some may not know of this toy from back in the day. Today there are no real toys, electronics keep our children happy and occupied. However that is another story. Let me get back on that top spinning! Yes!! We, the world are spinning out of control. While some think they have control and on their grind doing what they love, what they need, getting what they want. The drama is ever evolving like a putrid soap opera of daily and nightly reality TV! You guessed it! You were right! When does the day to day and night time drama end? When do we? Why do we care of what happens in others lives and truly not our own and say they\we could careless about others troubles and BS drama when we do! Some of our lives is a melting pot of escalated drama and ratchetness daily! Did I use that word? Ratchet? I believe I just did....shrugging shoulders.

My beautiful wise mother told me this. “You have six months to get yourself together and another six months to keep it together. Therefore I don't have anytime to worry what's going on in the next persons life.” Correctamundo! Love it! She is right! However some of us don't do that, and cant do that. Life would not be fun if there were no good and evil. If there were no righteous and self-righteous or malicious behaviors or some captain save 'em to come and save the day or nah!

First let me speak a little on some of the recent and not so recent events that have been happening lately in America. As again my mother has said, (I will be quoting her often in this piece) “What is done in the dark will soon come to the light.” That is realer than Evander Hollyfield! It all catches up to you! Well, people of color, African-Americans, Niggas! Did she say that??? Yes she did! Don't be shocked behooved or bamboozled by me saying this word! A lot of us still use this word (as endearment, or so we say we do) that the slave master gave us with cruel intentions! The word meaning, a neglect to grow! Oh so we were the people that were brought over from Africa/Egypt/ Kemet were looked upon as socially ignorant and would never amount or become anything but farm animals to breed and work the land!!!! Seems that way....Well as we have fought and fought and fought for equality. Marched and partitioned fought, cried and participated in civil right activities to be treated equally screaming, “No justice no peace!” The cat has been let out of the bag! The ball has been dropped!! While yes there were those who were leading the slaves up north to freedom because “Niggas” were treated better there and given so-called “equal rights” I cannot say that I don't appreciate the Nat Turners, Harriet Tubmans that wanted to be free! Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, Marcus Garvey and the many people who marched, preached and laid their lives down for equal rights because a lot of America “Loves To Hate Black People” (my new reality TV show)

We all have been bamboozled, led astray because though some may feel as if we have and are living better. Racism has never ever stopped!! Truth be told, the KKK traded in those sheets, I said they traded in those sheets ( In my Malcolm X Denzel Washington voice) and they put on black robes and became judges. They put on badges and became the “law” deputies, sheriffs, policeman. Yeah, them! I am not talking the equality of other cultures and races on the force now. Yet some of them are racist and hate their own kind. However that is another story. Soooooooo....these attorney's, lawyers and prosecutors which were all white back in the day. Mostly white now, have been lending their hands to continue being prejudice and racist. Black people have never ever stopped being “Americas Most Wanted” So what we are in movies, directors, singers, actors and such. Living and driving and some maybe even working in areas that black people were not welcomed. However, how many of us are living the quote unquote, “American Dream”? Black people have and still catching hell all over the world you know! Loved that line that Laurence Fishburn had in School Daze!! My movie! Black people never ever stopped getting beat, killed, hurt, disrespected, hated, fired and lied to because they were black! Not never! It is now brought to the media (more attention now) of all our fallen angels which have been young and black (older as well, and women) being caught on film (since Rodney King) of the injustice of the KKK oops, policeman killing them right before our eyes by every day people (filming on cell phones) and now being played on ABC News for the whole world to see. We wish there could be more black Presidents, Mayors and Congressman! Which now in my opinion looks like a full and pure set up! But that is another story! Are we truly free? Are we truly able to walk and go anywhere and not feel an uneasiness because of the color of our skin? So what you have money, P Diddy had mad money to spare and burn in some of the white peoples fireplaces. Yet they did not want that hip-hop black skin and his cohorts living nor playing in the lilly white acres of the Hamptons! Yes there are a few of us there, tokens to let the world know, “We are not prejudice. You can stay and live here amongst us.” But can we without getting shot? Wearing a hoodie? Walking across the street. Going in our pocket, answering a question, looking the other way, not looking into the masters eyes when spoken too? Did she just say master? I believe she did! Shrugging shoulders. My people, my kind, my culture are being killed and beaten by the law for nothing! Taken to the slaughter and treated like cattle when we were brought here from our rich and beautiful land. A land, a place that is still rich with minerals, precious metals and more that America wish she had. That is why the white man has ownership...Whew....let me back up and off! Anyway, the many women and men young and old that have laid their lives down for nothing because they are hated and not wanted. All of the many riots, protest and marches. It won't stop! Trust me we are in for a civil upheaval and unrest because to be perfectly honest with you. We were never given our freedom papers to begin with.

That took a long time it seems, I guess I had more to say than I thought I did. However this piece is more on the “Creep low Dolla” ( many I have heard refer to him as) or Creflo Dollar incident. Before I begin on this let me please state that I was born and raised in the church. I love the Lord with all my heart! The Creator has been very good to me! Rather I have been a sinner, backslider, liar, manipulator I have asked and I have received. I have also learned huge lessons. Choices I made that caused my own demise and civil unrest (mentally & emotionally oh & financially) I say the count down to Armageddon because it seems now more and more we are hearing of so many religions now. I am not here to reach, teach and preach to the masses nor convert you to believe what I believe. You are your own person. However believing in God for a lot of people seems to be played out and viewed as stupid and like a deadbeat dad! While being spiritual and asking the universe, gods and goddesses, mythology and metaphysical is the new religion. I am not playing that down nor up, I am clearly speaking my mind. Muslims, Hindus, metaphysical spiritualist and Buddhism all still have the same premise! Faith, love, hope, believe and give of yourself. So before this offends too many people and my email is inundated with unkind letters. Think before you get heated and outraged! You feel, you believe, you think, what you do, when you do, what you do when you do it. Just as I think and feel and believe!

The world loves to throw what has been called “Christians” under the bus! The most hated “religion” like black people and niggas (those who neglect to grow) ever since Ceaser gave us the name Christians because they were followers of Christ. Hmmmm....wonder why? No one religion is talked about and spat on so much with such vigor and disdain! Hmmmm.....wonder why. Welllll, let me move on. Let me also set the record straight! Christians are seemingly looked upon as being “perfect” and once we slip and fall or get caught up the world acts a nut!! Don't they? Jeesh!!! I get it and I truly understand, but as the Bible has many claims and disclaimers, many dos and don't s and a lot of encouragements. Other religions do as well! Some religions are just carbon copies of what the scriptures say. (Christian belief)

Now let me be clear! I have slid down the gasoline muddy waters hell bent fires off and on for years!! So if you think for one minute that I am going to play Ms. I am all of that and you can't mess with me for one minute you got me twisted like a bi-sexual on crack! Did she just say that? Yes she did! I got your attention though didn't I? Ha! She did that! Snaps fingers and rolls eyes! OK...getting back. Though I have done many things that the Bible has told me not to do that does not mean that I don't believe!!! I don't pray, I don't affirm nor confess the word daily in my life! So why do we continue to throw stones at the leaders? Or anyone for that matter that believes in God? John 8:7 says, So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. Okay so you are perfect? Far from it, again there is a scripture that states, Romans 3:23for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,It also clearly states in the scriptures, Isaiah 2:22 Stop trusting in mere humans, who have but a breath in their nostrils. Why hold them in esteem?Psalm 118:8it is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in humans.Soooooo what I am saying if you read a little, and even check back back back in the day in and all of your philosophies, religions, metaphysical spiritualist beliefs. What you believe.... there has and always will be someone who has fallen out and acted an azz!! Wow!! Did she say that? Yes she did!DO NOT PUT ALL YOURCONFIDENCE IN MAN HE WILL FAIL YOU EVERY TIME!!!We are angered when the politicians, mothers, fathers, laws, lawmakers, lovers, husbands, wives, friends so forth and so on disappoint us! We are hurt that they have come short of their word and left us hanging, literally failing us! How many times have you said, “I'm good” I have done it many of times! In fact was angered and kicked someone out of my life that didn't have my back when I was going through a rough time! This person said they loved me and would do anything for me. During that three months I was doing bad! Not once was I offered a crust of bread! Humans fail humans! It is life! So why do we feel the need to crucify every pastor, bishop, preacher when they sin and fall short? Most (if not all religions) teach non-hate, love, giving, don't commit murder, steal, fornicate, adultery. Yet when someone of the cloth falls into temptation we fall out and act a nut!!!! Let me state for the record that I do not agree with molestation, rape, incest, murder, adultery, fornication, theft, liars, haters so forth and so on. But let us keep it real!!! Just for one moment, some of us have committed if not one, but maybe two or three of these so-called sins and some laws! Now I have not raped, murdered been incestuous or nothing of that nature! God forbid! Lying yes! I take menus out of restaurants, uh that is stealing without asking. (I hope I didn't put myself on Americas Most Wanted for stealing menus! Dammit!) I curse at times, something “Christians” shouldn't do. I pull a shenanigan here and there, at times manipulative. I am not perfect and neither are you!!!

If Creflo Dollar stole the tithes! He has to answer to the Creator for that! Not you! If thirty other Bishops and pastors have affairs and make babies or molest little boys. They have to answer for that just like you have to answer for what you do! Remember what is done in the dark comes to light people! No one doesn't really talk of Muhammad and all the women he impregnated when he was being so self righteous getting high, wearing shades, (why was that?) and screwing a lot of the young women in his flock. We don't talk about that anymore. But we still talk about Jesus....hmmmm....wonder why? I am sure Mother Teresa that saint had a many day when everyone got on her last nerves!!! Probably stated “Whew these people are gettn on my nerves!” She was not perfect!! Gandhi who is looked also as one of the most subservient people to have walked the earth with a plethora of wisdom and kindness has had some days too! When Jesus was in the garden of Gethsemane he was peeved!! He begged God to take this cup from him, and I am sure he said a couple of profane words to the disciples that were not recorded in the Bible! Like, you guys are sleeping and I asked you to pray! They looking for me like I stole sumthn and my nerves are shot to hell! And y'all up here sleep! I know I probably would have. (well maybe he didn't curse but who knows?) Wasn't Jesus tempted? Yes he was, he was strong, yet he was tempted! Did he act out and act up? Yes he did! He told a lot of people off, got frustrated and acted a nut at the temple! He was turned up! Throwing tables up and over! Now if you are offended by what I said, in my Jill Scott voice I am singing, “Whatever it is let it be.” Pops lips and rolls eyes. Gives a look like “say something!” We as a whole are quick to judge and get literally offended when someone judges us or tells us “how we act” I embrace my flaws and my greatness! It is a pet peeve of mine when others don't speak on their flaws and down others! I am also offended at those that judge others when they too are in the same damn boat! You know that you are unattractive, you know this! Yet you will speak on how someone else is unattractive too! Are you kidding me?! You are overweight and looking like a barrel and yet will speak on how obese someone else is?! Get your life in my Tamar Braxton voice! Stop the self righteous behavior! Am I guilty? Good God yes! I admit it while others truly look the other way!Matthew 5:16In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. All I am saying to you is no one is perfect and we get disappointed by the actions of others and what they do. Are we, am I? The world looked at these strong powerful leaders as saviors? Yeap! We do! Because if we didn't we wouldn't blow each and every scandal out of the water like we do! Create this throw stones at your glass house. When we know we just had sex with the neighbors wife or husband. Shaking my head. People expect leaders of all walks in life to be prefect and live and lead perfect lives without blemish! I inner stand that as well. However we must be real and honest no one man in this world or any world for that matter has lived a perfect life and is guilty of many treason's! I'm just saying!

Ecclesiastes 12:14For God will bring every deed into judgment, with every secret thing, whether good or evil.

I am one to say that and believe wholly to much is given much is required. That is found in Luke 12:48. Again I am coming from my point of view and what I believe and not to tell you to think or believe what I do. If you believe that man evolved from apes then you do that! I do not believe that one bit in theory or non-theory! I do believe that whatever you put out in the universe you will get back, so a man thinketh so is he. I so believe in negative and positive thoughts and vibes and when there is too much negative and hate going on with the people I know around me and I don't want to act a zip damn fool! I must walk away! There have been situations that I have been in that have not let me walk away as fast as I want to. Yes I am flawed and host bad qualities. However I am not a hater, backstabber, jealous nor insecure woman. My wonderful positive intentions loving and nurturing self brings that out in other people. When you are cut out of my life, you are cut out because of your insecure and raucous behavior. So does it matter that Creflo stole the tithes of his church? Yes and no. Yes because that is not what a leader of the church should do. (if he did it, we have no real proof) No because that is between him and his conscience and his God! Did it matter to you when you cursed someone out and fell out and acted out or put someone down? When you cheated and lied? When you stole? When you used someone? Manipulated someone? The truth is your dirty laundry is not in or on social media. You are not a huge power player nor leader, celebrity or such. That is why your shame and guilt have not placated the airwaves or internet! Let me be clear once more! I do not agree what any leader that does wrong! Rather he be a man of God or nah! You must in all your inner being be a living example! But I do realize we are human! Damn... Hmmmmm....He without sin cast the first stone. As my mother has said many of times to me, as her mother has said to her.“If I tell you a hen dip snuff look under his right wing.”Meaning that, I tell you no lies, I give you the truth. The cold truth. That is what I did in my opinion today! I spoke on it! Because it seems to me that the self righteous are trying to be righteous and some are compromising their souls.... But why?.....Seemingly being it is the way of the world we live in. However, I would like to not put my soul up for sale......if I can help it...I am not perfect!

Toy High